Chapter 5
Chapter III: Curiosity – Discovering Myself by Discovering the World
I was thinking about curiosity. What is it, really? Is curiosity something childish, or rather something deeply rooted in our feminine side? What exactly is it? Does it threaten me, or will it help me? Since the beginning of time, feminine energy has searched for threats and support in its surroundings, and that is exactly what curiosity is. I think it is the essence of emotional intelligence. Women search, observe and look for what they can gain, despite very strong pressure from the outside: from family, grandparents, the whole of society.
Curiosity consists of two parts, masculine and feminine.
The feminine part is intuitive and explores connections. She feels. Masculine curiosity chooses: I want to try this. I discover on the basis of feelings and intuition, which feminine curiosity gives, and I choose thanks to trust in my essence, the safety that masculine curiosity gives.
Feminine curiosity is full of the energy of excitement (in it there is carefreeness, a bit of thoughtlessness and a lot of trust). Masculine curiosity is full of the energy of anger: the will to act, courage, taking a step, trust in my own values.
To discover who I am, to find in my experiences what is mine and what is not, a few things are needed:
Courage – treating life as learning,
Joy – consciously searching for what gives me joy,
Trust – my experience always has something in it that lets me learn more about myself.
The Butterfly
I think that generational life is like the life of a butterfly.
The form changes, the energy remains.
In the butterfly's egg, everything the butterfly will consist of is already written, even though it first exists as a caterpillar. If the caterpillar does not appear, no butterfly will be created.
Why not?
A butterfly does not have the ability to draw from food the nutrients that a caterpillar can digest. It is the same with people. In difficult times, our generations develop skills that later generations have integrated within them.
Between the caterpillar stage and the butterfly there is the pupal stage. At this stage we are a cocoon, and all the experience of the caterpillar stage dissolves within us. All the values we received at the caterpillar stage, we transform into a new stage. The form changes, the energy remains. In the egg it is written what the butterfly is going to be. The earthworm collects the values that the butterfly will need. The butterfly remembers everything from the caterpillar stage, even though it dissolved completely at the pupal stage.
If we don't go through the condensation of experience, we will not pass integrated values on. The stage of standstill I can interpret as the pupal stage. We transform all the experiences from being a caterpillar, converting the gathered experience so that a butterfly can be created. As a caterpillar, we have different needs and curiosity leads us into different areas. As a butterfly, we are curious about different things and look for answers to different questions, or, to put it differently, we look for different questions.
